Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Maybe I Will Feel Better Alone, Or Just Feel Something, My Heart is Turning to Stone

Days without talking to The Only Living Boy in New York: 2

Today was worse than yesterday. I almost emailed him, not because I was struggling with whether or not to do it but just because I saw something funny that would have made him laugh, and I almost did it as a reflex before I caught myself. Realizing that talking to him is instinctual was hard and fighting against that instinct was even harder. I'm going home to see my family tomorrow morning, so I think that getting out of my normal routine will make it easier to break the habit of him.

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